Through every tough decision, every incident that was out of my control, every misfortunate occurrence, I've always been led down a path that turned away from pain and along a cleanly paved road. Sure there has been pain, and struggle but the journey is not of pain; it's of growing and moving into new chapters of life. It is the shepherd who fights to save his sheep, and surely gets bit by the wolf, but in the end, the shepherd still has his sheep, and the sheep still have their shepherd.
At first, it was hard for me to see the kind of life I am supposed to lead. This life, especially in Las Vegas, enjoys offering 'make believe' happiness; the occasional strip club, the drinking and clubbing, late night partying and sleeping around. But the truth is, none of those ever lead to happiness.
I gave my life to Christ a long time ago, but it wasn't until the past two years that I really understood what it meant. My flesh and blood came into this world desiring the things the world has to offer; some of those listed above. But never have I been more fulfilled than in the past year where I put aside the seemingly uncontrollable desires of my flesh and let God control my life. On July 21st, 2010, our video game studio was let go due to lack of funding; around 18 friends and colleagues jobless in an instant. The strange thing is, I felt the same thing on July 20th that I felt on the 21st. Peace. I knew that no matter the circumstances, the Shepherd takes care of me. I'm still ambitious. I'm still motivated and calculated and I'm still able to love and give despite the circumstances.
I don't know where I'll be in two weeks, or next month but at the very least, I know I have friends that will lend their couch. I have family that will share their food and I have brothers and sisters in Christ that will do anything to help pave the road God is leading my down.
It has taken me this long to get a blog started, although I have many blogs written on paper for no one to see or read. I apologize for my selfishness in not helping the rest of you with what I've learned. I'm truly happy in spite of my circumstances and I'm more excited now than I've ever been to where that path will take me next.
Be truly excited for change in your life. If your circumstances are out of your control, know that God has other plans and His plans are MUCh greater than your own. Let Him lead, as His paths lead to righteousness, but our own paths lead to destruction.
"What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him." -1 Corinthians 2:9
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